Just Somebody I Used to Know

its past midnight. but im still wide awake. i would end up doing something and stopping suddenly for 10 minutes starring into space thinking. i wanted to think of anything else besides you. but couldnt. i want to cry. but couldnt find the reason to. couldnt find the tears to shed for you. i want to forget. but couldnt. you arent worth enough for me to rmb you in the first place to forget you now. i felt like giving up and disappearing. why stay in this fucked up. messed up life? i end up wanting to do homework. to keep my mind busy. but failed. all i am think about now is you. im confused. i have nvr felt like this in my life before. what do you want me to do now? just stop being a flower eat and make her like you back. could have prevented me from all this unnecessary pain.