the forgotten ;D

FINALLY, i set my mind to forget you. sometimes, i just hope to get run down by a car, forget bout my past, and start  a new life (: so that i wun have to think bout those heartbreaking relationships. you asked me if i missed you today. i gave it a hard thought. maybe i miss you, well. do i ? no. actually i dont. i didnt want to hurt your feelings. so i said a little more yes to no. honestly speaking, i got sick of all these. i didnt like you anymore. but talking to you just make me feel like so damn happy . it's awesome knowing you, though some people doesnt like it, though some people just fucking wanna bitch around and doesnt like you walking past my class everytime. but i dont wanna care. the last msg i texted you was at 12. and until now you didnt reply. well, so what ? i dont give a damn. you wanna reply, you reply. duwanna reply, so be it. when i reply you late , you accuse me. when you reply late, i dont say anything. thats totally unfair. it's all in the past already. nvm (: i letting go of this matter. im forgetting you . im setting my mind to do this and i dont care if you can do so. 

i just wanna sleep and wake up tmr, hoping everything was just a dream.

you make me so sacred, make me feel so darn-right paranoid. i dont reply you, and you assume i was like fucking talking to other guys ? wtf -.- you were the one replying me late first okay. stop blaming everything on me now ! it's just so miserable. why ? out of all the girls, WHY ME ? everyone says it's cool having an upper sec liking you. crap man ! it's MISERABLE when he doesnt wanna give up. what's your problem ? keep asking me to be your girlfriend ? what fuck siah ? you think i'm gonna accept you that easily ? i duwanna hurt you. i dont like telling people straight in the face like , " just goddamit, give up on me ! i dont like you. hello ? it's my streaming year this year ! it's not important to you, but it's fucking important to me ! " yeah, QUEEN OF EXCUSES. that's me. so what ? everytime, seriously. there wun be any perfect week ! every week, we will always be fighting over the same thing over and over again -.- what is this ?! you think i'm just somebody who you can dump when you dont want to play anymore ? and suddenly stop talking to me, den ltr a few days, re-appear again -.- seriously man. fuck off. like damn, go away ! i dont want to have a boyfriend now ! i dont want to. it just got boring for me. BORING . okay ? get that word right. yeah, you said, i'm the ideal girl you want. hey, get it right ! you AINT the ideal guy i want. i kept hinting you. trying to say that , just give up on me. but you wouldnt ! and end up, you're gonna start blaming everything on me again. and it's gonna seem like it's all my fault. i said ! you can continue being your little admirer. but, i duwan to stead wif you ! okay ? i duwan to stead wif you ! shit. i feel like saying all this to you . right now. IN YOUR FACE. wei, dont think you gangster and you can get what you want okay. i'm all acting it out wif you okay ? ( although it's kinda not true sometimes ._. ) i swear. you are one scary bastard .

OH HEY. YOU KNOW WHAT ?

you know what ? you suck. my life was perfect until you went into it to destroy it. ohh so, the first minute, you are fighting wif me, saying how bitch i was, and the nxt minute you're apologizing ? who do you think you are ? and who do YOU think i am ? who ARE you to judge me ? so, you're wanting me back so badly now ? well, get this right. i'm not your toy. you dont play wif me when you want to. you dont throw me aside when you feel like it. you dont vent your anger on me when your day isnt right. when you make me angry, you dont say " i love you " . let me tell you. it doesnt help at all. you dont make me happy by saying those 3 words. yes, they are easy to say it out. but how many percent are you using your heart to say it sincerely ? i will help you answer them , NONE. go on, tell others how bitchy i can be, go. yeah. keep spreading rumors bout me. you dont come back and tell me how sorry you are, wanting me to accept you again. you know what ? i cant believe i actually once liked you. i cant believe i ever did. hey. dont mess up my life. i dont need you to survive. i CAN survive on my own. because you went out of control, i dont know you anymore. seriously, who ARE you ? you aint that guy i once met and once liked anymore. </3 you are now, out of my heart. 

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AWW. sorry for not posting really long (: DAMN. tmr school reopen. SAD ! ): NO SLEEPING LATE ANYMORE ! but fun uh go school. hehe. go meet up wif friends . LOL. i havent finish my homework somemore. LOL. pathetic only. hahaha.waking up at 6 tmr. 6 ! GOSH. i dont even know if i can sleep early today, since im used to sleeping at 11:30 every night during holidays. must switched bck to SCHOOLING MOOD. hahaha. gtg pack my school bag ! (: BYEE ;D