Just Somebody I Used to Know

its past midnight. but im still wide awake. i would end up doing something and stopping suddenly for 10 minutes starring into space thinking. i wanted to think of anything else besides you. but couldnt. i want to cry. but couldnt find the reason to. couldnt find the tears to shed for you. i want to forget. but couldnt. you arent worth enough for me to rmb you in the first place to forget you now. i felt like giving up and disappearing. why stay in this fucked up. messed up life? i end up wanting to do homework. to keep my mind busy. but failed. all i am think about now is you. im confused. i have nvr felt like this in my life before. what do you want me to do now? just stop being a flower eat and make her like you back. could have prevented me from all this unnecessary pain.

currently thinking if i should change my school -.-

@ lollipop : bleah ! go laa ! hahah. but dancing wif a guy is totally crazy. hahha. but if it's me, i dont think i want to go, cuz i wun be enjoying it anyway ;D your choice laa (;

DAMN. i dont like my school -.- like damn regretted going to the school i appealed to although there are still friends that actually understand me uh. unlike my class ! some bitches. right. from the start of school, damn. from the look of the face uh. i know they surely gonna be like damn enemies wif me. and like, gonna steal all my friends away._.  damn. the feeling that you get left out everytime. not like in primary school. when like everyone knows your character, den they get along wif you like damn well. it's like, in sec school uh. totally dfferent siah. eeeeeee. i dont like my school. im having the thought that i should go sports school (; but ltr got muscle.eee. hahha. i dont want ;D i wonder how i can survive in that school for that whole of the next 3 years ! );
yeah. i know. my words like dont pass by my brain before i actually speak. yeahh. i offended some. but we spend like how many months being together and know each other well ? 10 months ? sometimes im like straightforward person at least like when i talk, when i even start talking, like stop damn asking me to shut up uh. if i ask you to shut up in front of a group of friends, how'd you feel ? huh ? you can like others, others cant hate you ? what rule is this ? -.- well, let me tell you uh. everyone damn hate your attitude. stop stealing my friends laa. i think your attitude suck way more than me.
damn you fucking bitch-'-


sorry. just venting ._. thinking of what even happened this year.this stupid year D;

To Go or Not to Go is the Question

@kpoplover thanks! you know we totally pwned the RD!!! we won like so many events. broke the records. awesomeee ... and there like a x mas party coming up in dec 23 ... still deciding whether to go. do you think i should or should not ... hahaha its like doing another debate by myself, heres the pros and cons

pros: well ... mainly for fun and hanging out after school till 8. and maybe later than that cos have to help clean and can skip my piano classes xD

cons: have to slow dance with someone ... thats a rule in the party so stupid right? and have to bring one dish of food for the party and make up my piano classes after that ... both very mah fan = =

help me decide leh! i seriously cant choose ... i rlly wan go but come on! slow dance? its like couple dance ... diao i dont like even dance at all! haha (just imagine me DANCING with a guy. horrible picture :) )

WALAN. ASS LA

gambateh to lollipops first ! (;

WALAN. NOW IT'S LIKE AS IF IT'S MY FAULT. I CANT GO MEANS I CANT GO WHAT. DONT TRYNA ASSUME ANTHING LA . YOU PRACTCALLY POSTED THAT LIKE ON TWITTER. LIKE AS IF IM AT TOTAL FAULT LIKE THAT. I WAS TRYING MY BEST TO GO RIGHT ! years of friendship. gone like that over HER BIRTHDAY ? TOTALLY NOT WORTH IT.

* apology accepted * THATS WHAT YOU SAY -.-

Sports Day Fatality

@kpoplover heyy id say reject larh ofc! haha
this few days like damn epiccc .. first i had a messed up thing with a friend slash classmate .. complicated story cos like what other ppl believe is story 1, but what i told them was story 2, but what rlly happened was story 3 .. yea i know .. stupid right :) and than today we had a sports day pre-game and i have the 100m race and i think i got like 5/6 place haha cos of the stupid finish linesssss. there was like this line with numbers there and i stopped but than i saw i was the only stopping and everyone else was still running and i am like wtf?! than i saw the real finish line way in front with the ribbon held in midair thing = = so yea i dont think i am going to run 100m in sports day liao lorh .. sad .. but still got relay! thats like even worse -.- tomorrow there will be the relay pre-game i just rmb! gosh haha hope we can win this time round! gambateh to meeeee <3

11/11/11

yesterday. awesome date. 11/11/11. lolliiiipop!!!! remember CHIPMUNK ? he ask me for stead yesterday. i rejected him. LOL. but he say give him one more chance. i asked for comments from 2 ppl. LOL. HAHAH. they all say reject. (; GIVEEE MEE A PIECE OF ADVICE ON MSN ! (x

Two words: EFF. UP.

GOSH?! JUST WHAT IS THE PROB WITH YOU?! WILL YOU DIE WITHOUT REPORTING EVERYTHING TO HIM?! LIKE YOU SAY HIS A FLIRTER BUT HELLO?! WAN TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR? COS I CAN BET YOU WILL SEE ONE THERE TOO, BITCH.

dotdotdot

hi ppl! i am freeeee. its after the exams and my debate practice was just over!! :D haha loads to tell! ty for the jiayous and i did do well enough for myself this time
but like my standards are just passing so you know what i mean.. huehuehue anywhos .. i was actually gonna post some pictures this time but i am still trying to figure out how to cos the thing says something bout URL? wth? i am like super hyper and emo right now .. emo cos a couple of friends might be transferring away cos of bad grades .. sadd .. and my sch is going to organize a xmas party BUT I CANT GO BECOS OF THE EFFING PIANO CLASSES!! same goes for a debate trip to taipei! and we get to stay one night there at a hotel and eat night market sigh .. oh oh and one more thing. news feed in my sch. there are two brothers from Florida who are new students in the sch. and they are like super shuai. cos they take the train to sch mah and then the girls working at the train station or someone left like a message saying 'Hi I am the train girl. Can i make friends with you?' on their bikes. i am like wtf <3

D:

AWW DAMN.cuz i fail my core subject , science, my cher nid see parents -.- AND MY RANKING IN CLASS SUCK. 32/40. HOW COOL ? ._____. NOT FAIR. others can study, and score well. what bout me ? no matter how much i study, nothing gets into my brain -.- what the hell is my brain use for ? -.- FOR CRAPZXC. god please. dont make me give up on everything. i only gave up on science. i duwan to give up on my literature. at least make me pass ! ><

YAWWW. WHAT'S UP

YAWWW. FORGET ALL THOSE MISSES AND KISSES. HAHAH. i ditched :D 

all the best for your EOY lollipop ! (: yeahh. talking bout EOY, i failed 2 subjects. haha. science and literature. trust me man . i dont have science genes. no matter how much i study for my science, i just keep failing. hahah.but i still got promoted anyway ! :P HEHE. jiayouzxc for exams lollipop (: gambateh yaw ! study hard ! 

Missed );

He's at Malaysia noww ); I miss him ); haizxc. 3 more days and he will come bck to Singapore. I can somehow say that we are a little stable now :) I wonder if he will buy me anything when he's at Malaysia

AWWW (:

OMG ! how sweet is that ?! we actually went ehub (: it's was an awesome day (: he treat me drinks,he accompany me home (: aww. HAHAHHAHA.omg.im totally in love siahhh (: <3

Ct and him

Ct's coming up :/ Which is like tmr -.- and it's science. I left my textbook in school. Wtf. Gambatehh to me den. Hahahah. Now ! Comes to him

HAI :3

hi ppl! paiseh on haitus  for so long! 죄송합니다! this will be just a short post. wait for a while more and maybe i will be posting photos soon~ haha cheer up kpop! i am finally posting! i told you i changed a lot, you'll see the difference soon! ;)))) kaykay a lot things happened ever since I left. and yups i still miss being there! I can nvrnvrnvr forget you ppl! heres a quote i got from a very good friend:
" Best friends are hard to find,
  Harder to leave,
  And impossible to forget!"

wtf

WILL YOU DIE WITHOUT A STEAD ? NO RIGHT? STOP BEING DESPO FOR STEAD LA. whats the problem ? -.- you're despo for stead and you just find a bitch to be your stead ? at least open your eyes and find a better one right ? wtf siah.

(: HAPPYYY

i successfully broke ! im like a free man now (: oooh.and i met this senior after cca on friday while i was waiting for my dad to pick me up from school.he and his big group of guy friends came. den the 1st guy said : 19 how much ? 

den i ignored. the 2nd guy smarter.he put his face near my face and said : 19 how much ?

i gave him the innocent face and den gave the look like : WHAT? GET LOST DUDE. fuck off !

and right.he get lost ~ (:

hahaha.you get it ? get what they were actually saying ? 

they said : 19 how much? it meant : one night how much ? -.- crazy yeah ? 

yeah.but they were just playing ~ HAHAH.a crazy bunch of seniors -.-

DEPRESSION SEYH~

like wtf.i was going to break on the first day of school.den my friends told me tht if i break wif him,he will get depression -.- he's gonna pakour ( a sports that guys play ) till he injured.he's gonna break down.what siah.he think that we'll last forever ? NO right ? -.- so.., what the hell am i suppose to do now ? i like,dun even like him.den he.. URGHHHH.im like sooo damn frustrated.what siah.wait till he breaks wif me huh ? -.- that will last.he will never ever break wif me.he's like obssessed liao. what the hell am i going to do siahhhh?! im like damn pissed off.today,my friend kena spread rumors bout she like this guy when she dun.wtf siah.WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO THIS WORLD ?!

((:

YO.didnt post for quite a few days.tmr school ~~~ reopen !!!! (: yeah man. and lollipop! your're having your SUMMER VACATION! hahaha.it sounds damn cool siah! summer vacation.i wann! hahah.i miss school~ but i still have alot of homework not done and im still right here..., BLOGGING.hahahahhah.i dont give a damn bout all those homework. it's like they give shit homework siah.we havent even take that subject and they want us to do the worksheet?! wtf is this ? im like totally clueless bout the whole worksheet.and i have to go on9 to look for the answers.but the first thing i go on9,is to login to facebook,blog,and msn.hahah.see what i mean? checking out for answers on the web.totally useless to me.hahahha.cuz i wun even bother to check.i left some questions blank on some worksheets.tmr ! im going to go to school ~ early early.and copy answers.HAHAHA.smart idea huh ~? HAHAH.and i cut my hair ~ ><  i cut my FRINGE ! it's like damn effin' short siahh~ ooh.and lollipop! how's your final? hope it's good ! (:

PICTURES (:

both taking pictures of each other (:

 CHIO BABE (:

                                                      

MY PRETTY PRETTY WIFFEY xD

a heart made of balloons.hahaha

NICEEE PIC ! i took it (: hahaha.

 okay.pathetic me.

my hair is in a mess :X

SAY ' CHEESE ! '

swings ! my favourite !

swinging up and down (:

i look like im not wearing pants.it shorts (:

flying out of the swing if i go any higher  xP

puffy mouth~ hahaha

(:

pictures of our butt.HAHAHAHA

this guy dunno how to swing.ahahah.my brother (:

hair flying ~

someone's pushing him from the back,thats why he can swing ;D

NICEE~

nice view (:

handsome guys (:

LOLOLOLOL

(:

looking ~

swinging at the same time!

:X

i look retarded

smile ~

high high in the air ~

THEIR BIG WIDE SMILE.

xD HAVE FUNN LOOKING THROUGH THEM ! (:

08062011

Yesterday was awesome! It was class outing. Syafiqah atiqah and I took the bus to changi beach. We totally had alot of funn on the bus! We camwhored on the bus and we were damn making alot of noise cuz we were the only one on the bus :D it was funn siah. Den when we reached changi, we left our bags at the meeting point and went to the toilet to prepare the water bombs:) we got ourselves wet even before we start playing ! Lol. There were alot of food. Muffins, noodles, drinks, cakes... Etc. Syafiqah atiqah and I den went to rent bike ^^ syafiqah and I rented the double seat bike. I was seating at the front and we couldn't even cycle. Haha. I can't seat at the front. So we switched places. Den we started cycling. It was funn:) den we cycled to the playground. The guys were there. We went to play the swing. My favorite. I love swings. Atiqah and I swing like as if we were going to fly out. Haha. The guys didn't know how to swing! Wth. Lol. We took alot of photos :) we had videos too. I might upload them on Facebook and on this blog^^ den we went back to the shelter to play water bomb :) he kept bombing me. And I got wet! Damn wet. Den we went to the toilet to fill up bottles to pour on others. It was fantastic :D it was quite late already. So we went home. I was damn tired already :) but I definitely had lots of fun !!

Urgh...

My head feels sooo heavy :|headache siah. Tmr I'm having class outing at changi beach. I had been looking forward to it for the past few weeks. But today, I suddenly dun feel like going for the class outing. Which Is tmr. I'm soo damn tired. I'm gonna take a nap. I dun feel like doing anything now :|

....

I deleted the last few post I posted. It was emo. I was damn sad that period. So. Yeah. I deleted them. I have a gang. This girl wanted to leave the group. Thr was some conflicts. She said : she can't afford to lose us. She rather lose a fren who my gang hate and a girl who was much closer to her. I didn't really understand her feelings though. But now. Today. I know how she feels. My fren said I hav changed. Getting attention or something. Ppl in my class starting to hate me. I can't afford to lose my frens. She said that I'm like trying to get attention from my bf. And now, ppl are like ignoring me .. I'm trying to change.. But they just wouldn't like gimme the chance . I'm like what. Depression at the moment. What muz I do to get my frens bck? >< omfg. Alot of things happened these few days. Well, it affected me only. Not my family. My gang are still the best of friends I ever had. But they're hanging out with others than wif me except for the girl who I mentioned that she wanted to leave the group. She's the best friend I ever met. She mostly hates the same ppl as me. She's caring ~ and yeah. Sometimes bossy a little. But she is so much better than the others. My project partner is one of the members in my gang. We were supposed to do the project today. But because others asked her out, she decided not to do the project today. And she told me the last minute. My relationship with my friends are starting to fade. We aren't that close anymore. Any comments? Like what I should do to get them bck? I heard comments from my friends. They said I was a little bossy. What should I do ? Okay. This is the longest post I ever posted.

LALALALA

told my mother bout my maths results (: 1st in class.awesome.A1.and she was like: omfg! you serious?!?!?!
and i was like : yeahhh~! wthhh.hahahahahhaha

exams

last few days didnt post.exam period.cant use computer.awesome! exams over and  i got back my results! how awesome did i do!!! (: hahah.im not trying to show off la.but im hell happy (: i finally passed my maths.with flying colours!! and even got 1st in class! woots! i've got A1 for maths and Chinese.Chinese i got 4th in class.den science was pathetic!!!!! ): i passed my physics but i failed my chemistry.but overall i passed.JUST PASSED.hahahahha.50/100.but it's better thn fail! my friend cried today.she failed her physics.she cried,and i almost cried!!! hahahaha.i cant stand seeing people cry >< lol.JIAYOUS FOR EXAMS LOLLIPOP! gambatei!!!!! (: hope i pass every subject! (: <3

my birthdayyy(:

the day before my birthday was my english and mother tongue paper 1(: my friends decided to celebrate it on that dayy(: cuz my birthday on a saturday.and and! main point! HE! hahaha.after exams,we are allowed to go home.he havent gimme my present (ring) so my friends and i waited for him to gimme my present xD den,he grab my hand,and put the ring into my finger(: AWW! HAHAHAHA.4th finger seyhh~! WOOTS(: im going crazyyyyyy~

Gawddddd

It's the start of exam tmr! And he is gonna give me my present!!!! Yay!!!!! Ltr he kiss me siah^^ lol. Blush blush;) hahahaahah. I hope tmr comes and at the same time, it doesn't come! Dun make sense right? Hahahaha. I want tmr To come cuz I want to see his present And not to forget to see his face too

Home econs

Home econs seriously suckkk. I'm trying out my chocolate chip cookie now for my practical on this Thursday! Omfg. Now the cookies are in the oven. And I'm waiting like an idiot for the cookies. I'm only given 45 mins for the practical. And now it like took more than 45 mins la. Wtf siah. Things doesn't go my way these few days. Darn it siah. How???? Sooo damn confused. It's late. And I'm hell tired already! Cookies! Please be baked soon~

Zzzz..

I'm soo tired. I'm very tired. Why am I soo tired todayyy? Lollipop, I'm going crazy. I should be hyper! Like the way I am, you know. Haissh. Tmr.., tmr I'm gonna go crazy. First, PE!!! Yay. Hahahahah. Run about wif my gang crazily;) woots! Hahahaha. Den, hist-___- pathetic. That lesson arh, I tell you, can SLEEP de xD seriously. But exams coming Uh. Can't slag. And today, I got bck my class test for English comprehension :X pathetic. Total is 20. Guess how much I score? Hahahahahah. I scored a 5;) 5 you know :| how pro am I? Hahahahaha. Paper 1 is starting on this Friday. This Friday kkay. It's darn right fast. I better score well :X god bless me mannn ;)

Haissh

I don't know. And I dun care! Stop asking me TT.TT seriously please. Pathetic . Today was darn right a bad day. Cuz he was fed up. And so was I. After mother tongue, we went bck to take our bags and decided to go to the canteen. An there he came. He had a BLACK face that makes me soo like omg. Den he got angry when my friend Ask him something. He shouted bck, an slammed the door as he went out. And I was like : wtf is happening ?! And I found out afterwards. He fought wif another class guy. And he decides to fight wif that guy tmr. OMG. Dun let that happen please. I dun ever ever wanna see anyone getting hurt. It hurts me even more :| and now, that damn Facebook doesn't wanna let me sign in using the I touch! Wtf siah!!!!!!! my birthday is coming ! So is the surprise that they ate going to give me ;) LOL. Thinking bout it, I dun really think it might be something crazy or whatever;) but, yeah~ now I can't wait for my birthday ;)

AWW MANNNNNNNN ):

I miss him,i miss him,i miss him,i miss him,i miss him,I miss him,i miss him,i miss him,i miss him,i miss him.







BUT! I MISS YOU MORE :X HAHAHAAHHA^^

my so-called bro said that he and him went to burn some papers at the blocks thr.OMG right? hahahahaha^^ den they saw some ppl coming,and they ran away(: hahahahahahah^^  siao right? LOL

HELL CUTE

                                                 they are tooo hawt <3

                                                          as u've requested, it's lee minho's time.
                                                                     HANDSOME ~

                                                    not to forget! the BIG BANG <3 HOW CUTE
                                                                             

aren't they cutee? SHINee forever tagg me on facebook(: i juz love her <3

here comes my group of awesome friends(: take ur time to admire them(: no evil comments (:

                                   sometimes,they might be crazy,but they are awesomeeee(:

                                                              here comes the guys(:
                                                              handsome right?? ikr <3



                                   im gonna upload more soon(: LOLLIPOP,where's urs? hahah.
                                        gtg soon,tagg soon(: i will tagg more fotos next time (:

Omfg

I was suppose to be on9 at 8.30 yesterday night to chat wif him!!! But den I went out for dinner. and when I came home, it was already like 9.30!!! He wasn't on9 anymore. I think he's angry wif me!!!!!! I'm soooo sorry. I didn't keep to my promise . dui bu qi ;(

Meeee ;)

I shall teach you how to post one day;) Tmr school holiday ;( my friends, well, my gang, going out study.. They ask me to go. Ask my mother, she dun allow-__- walan. Study wif friends oso cannot. My sister can do lots of stuffs while I can't. This is sooo unfair ;( There will be lots of school holidays this term. Aww man.. I'm gonna miss all my friends. Especially him

today..,

today was damn tired.Almost slept in class.tmr there will be lots of test!We are suppose to only have 2 tests per day,well,at least that's part of the school rules;) serious ^^ and I was Like damn tired after PE and I came bck to class lying on the table.He actually thought I was angry at him or something!hahaha

LALALALA

I'LL UPLOAD SOME PICTURES(:
HAVE FUNN LOOKING THROUGH THEM <3