i've tried..

i've tried. over and over again to forget you. though first few days were hard, i managed to live past them. the last day when my mind was 90% over you, you came back to me, apologizing, asking for forgiveness. i used to accept those apologies. hoping you would learn from your mistakes. fight, happen every week without fail. there wouldnt be any perfect week. not even once. the cycle of asking for forgiveness came. maybe i gave in too easily. maybe i forgave you too easily. maybe maybe. many maybes. i guess i gave you too many chances. too many chances that made you not cherish them. too many chances.. and i guess it came too easily for you. sometimes, forgetting somebody you onced love, doesnt mean that those memories wouldnt come flooding into your mind one day. it hurts alot thinking. it hurts alot remembering. it hurts so much that thinking of it makes me cry. friends said, it's not worth crying. he doesnt deserve you. part of me agrees. part of me feels confused. i know i do not like him. well, maybe i do. but why cling on him ? i dont know why, i dont know why. he's not worth it..