HELLO (:

@ lollipop : HAHAHA. IDK (: waiting though. hehe. waiting for somebody. haha. that somebody.., you know luh. (: haha. im not wif the other guy. he tell other people he dont want stead wif me -.-

so, HEHE. so long didnt go online ready ;D wasw enjoying life. haha. and OMG. big bang new awesome song !! FANTASTIC BABY <3 obsessed wif that song man ! FREAKING BLOODY AWESOME. and blues. (: SHINee has new songs too ! UNDER SHERLOCK ALBUM. hehe. but im more obsessed wif sherlock. WOOHOO. big bang and SHINee, back and rocking the stageee ~ ! xD

Time to Change that Relationship Status

@kpoplover WAAAAIITTT? PAUSE THAT! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY YOURE GOING TO BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE SOON? MSN SOON PLEASEE!
haha we just had our NIFTy debate competition today~ and it kinda sucked... XDD idk for our first round but we lost our second round. but for the entire junior varsity team we were co-winners. and for the varsity team we lost to TAS :((( oh well~ we won last year so~ XDD NANKE BD STILL ROCKS 24/7!~ <3

He will one day understand.

Now he's back. And I realized. He's like my drug. I'm always addicted to texting him. Den now. I'm about to be in a relationship with another guy. He tells me he wouldnt be talking to me anymore. All of them told me. I can't have 2 guys in my life at the same time. Why? It's like twilight. Bella likes jacob and Edward. Jacob's a guy who always back her up when she's not okay. She wants both Jacob and Edward. But she can live without Jacob but not Edward. I can live without both guys. But I would chose to be with him. But yet i don't want to be in a relationship with him. Den what exactly do i want!? You said I treated you like a tool More like the other guy's a tool. He's a tool to make you jealous. He's a tool To make you forget me and go to her. He's a tool For me. I did everything for you. FOR YOU. But you couldn't see it. If only you could read my mind. Like how Edward Cullen read other people's mine.

mang lai mang qu de

this few days damn busy sia. got nifty debate competition coming up in like 5 days. world scholars cup coming in less than a month. midterms coming up in a months plus. than later got finals follow up. than end of this year still got theory exam. and then still got more jian dings, SSATs, PreSATs, SATs, APs, MUN to take in future plus piano. god ah save me ah~ and than these few days i feel so mean and guilty. somehow i tend to throw my temper on my friends more frequently. ignoring people who care abt me. taking my parents care for granted. taking my teachers for granted. i guess i must look like a real spoilt bitch right now. im so srry, i rlly am, its just im so stressed up right now, i dont know what to do, what to feel. everythings happening in a rush and i just start to doubt every detail, everyone. its just sucks more that we are dissecting pigs in life science lab! and some crazy teacher is too stupid to understand when i told him not to mark my wb chapter 8 becos im not done with it yet! W.H.Y.

DAMN

dammit dammit dammit. I JUST CANT GET YOU OFF MY MIND, COULD I !? why ? why must you always be there ? trying to forget you. but just those memories of us, it just keeps flooding back ! damn. i nid someone to brainwash me. i just want to get run over by a car, get a head concussion and forget you ! i just gotta control myself. but why!? I CANT GET MYSELF TO DO THAT. i kept reading our messages , our convos on facebook. sometimes, i just smile to myself. den you will be back into my head. damn ! why !? just fucking go to her and forget me ! you are obviously playing favoritism ! you can actually tell her " tell me if she scolds you. i help you scold her back " damn ! you are protecting her. damn. my best friend, you like her. now i beginning to suspect her. she actually told you that i plan to scold her ? motherfuckingcb. you listened to her !? HOW COULD YOU !? this is unfair. my friends told you to fuck off, all because you kept disappointing me and making me cry. they dont wanna see me being like that anymore. and you actually told me that you cant try to shake me off because you liked me too much ? you know what ? im actually kinda happy that i didnt accept you. im glad i didnt ! because you like me and you like my best friend . thats obviously wrong ! it's total bullshit man. i know. after a few days, you will be back to me. but what will i get ? nothing. just an apology and " iloveyou " you obviously still like her ! you are obviously making use of me when you're bored ! i know. i already know you were making use of me. but what did i do ? i let you make use of me. because i know im already starting to fall for you again. i rather she not even borned ! why !? why is everyone going to her !? why !? she's not even fucking little pretty. she's not ! fine, im vain. i want everything to myself. but isnt that what every girl wants !?it's always breaking inside me whenever you tell me bout her. but i didnt show it. i didnt wanna let you know that im jealous. im jealous of her . so what !? im always stealing guys from her. so what !? i dont want her to get everything. it's unfair. it's unfair to me ! im always working hard for things. but she can sit there and do nothing, do unglam stuffs and people can go to her. im always watching my actions. im always watching my moves. what did i get ? NOTHING. NOTHING IN RETURN. i always hope you know how i feel. but you didnt know i have a blog. and sometimes, im glad you didnt know. other times, i hope you actually just pay some attention on me instead of her !